TGIF
oh man i finally kinda know in a small way now why working pple are always so happy for friday to come around!its because wearing working clothes the whole day everyday is the worst form of torture ever! so hot and scratchy and gross yucks i cant stand it man... and my feet miss my slippers so much!!! argh. im so gonna be one of those housemen wearing slippers nxt time for sure! 3 more years of this... really pray that i make it through! haha. other than that, school has been really mega tiring la. our tutors are the super on variety (with the exception of one certain slacker irritant man) so we have been having marathon tuts and sarting early and ending late everyday. good for learning, not so good for the feet and the slacker in me heh. but ok la its been an eye opener and i realise tt being a doctor is really alot about how u talk to the patient and how well you are able to communicate your plans to them. i think what they say in the videos about empathy and stuff are abit too much also la but when i see how my tutors talk to the patients it really makes me hope that one day i would be able to do that too!
even though lessons have been more interesting and interactive, and i have been learning alot, but clinicals have been getting me down. dont really know why, maybe its the lack of sleep, or the people around me or the seeing sick people everyday and the feeling that i can do nothing to help them, the sensation that we are using their misery to help ourselves,the talking excitedly in the msc abt interesting cases, forgetting that they are people who are sick and tired of our probing questions and our curious, unexperienced hands touching them all over. and its an unfortunate fact that we need to do these things to learn properly, but cant help but feel bad sometimes. oh wells, hopefully i get used to the workings of a hospital soon and hopefully i learn that the best way to wake up ungrumpy with the world is sleeping earlier!
this week i kept telling myself, tomorrow will be a better day, and it never was, and on thurs i was really qt down in the morning, just sianned and stuff, so i snuck away to talk to God, and that made me feel worlds better. i realise that there is only so much concern people can show for one another before demands of school and stuff draw them away, but God is always there, and He always knows how and why you feel lousy and He is the best comforter of all :) its difficult because ive never felt so stupid or incapable in my life, but He reminded me of all the miracles that He made that i may enter and survive med sch so far, and surely He has proved Himself enough to me, its now time i trust that He will bring me through this part of it as well, so yeahhh. i will hold on because the Lord my God is with me :)
anyway it was good to meet up with the og yst as well, realise how much ive missed them!!! candice and i were agreeing that its been so wierd without seeing the rest everyday and how we are so happy whenever we see each other or mike, jac and chris around in the wards or at lunch or at the msc heh and its true! i love my penguins very very much heh
anyway today was a pretty relaxing day, woke up at 2 when tut started at 9 so decided to have a self declared holiday heh. time to bladeeee... the sun is finally out and calling out my name! the twins have been complaining tt ive neglected them (which i have) so its time to rectify tt problem heh. yay!
even though lessons have been more interesting and interactive, and i have been learning alot, but clinicals have been getting me down. dont really know why, maybe its the lack of sleep, or the people around me or the seeing sick people everyday and the feeling that i can do nothing to help them, the sensation that we are using their misery to help ourselves,the talking excitedly in the msc abt interesting cases, forgetting that they are people who are sick and tired of our probing questions and our curious, unexperienced hands touching them all over. and its an unfortunate fact that we need to do these things to learn properly, but cant help but feel bad sometimes. oh wells, hopefully i get used to the workings of a hospital soon and hopefully i learn that the best way to wake up ungrumpy with the world is sleeping earlier!
this week i kept telling myself, tomorrow will be a better day, and it never was, and on thurs i was really qt down in the morning, just sianned and stuff, so i snuck away to talk to God, and that made me feel worlds better. i realise that there is only so much concern people can show for one another before demands of school and stuff draw them away, but God is always there, and He always knows how and why you feel lousy and He is the best comforter of all :) its difficult because ive never felt so stupid or incapable in my life, but He reminded me of all the miracles that He made that i may enter and survive med sch so far, and surely He has proved Himself enough to me, its now time i trust that He will bring me through this part of it as well, so yeahhh. i will hold on because the Lord my God is with me :)
anyway it was good to meet up with the og yst as well, realise how much ive missed them!!! candice and i were agreeing that its been so wierd without seeing the rest everyday and how we are so happy whenever we see each other or mike, jac and chris around in the wards or at lunch or at the msc heh and its true! i love my penguins very very much heh
anyway today was a pretty relaxing day, woke up at 2 when tut started at 9 so decided to have a self declared holiday heh. time to bladeeee... the sun is finally out and calling out my name! the twins have been complaining tt ive neglected them (which i have) so its time to rectify tt problem heh. yay!
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